Things at the hospital have picked up now, and I have a lot of observations about how debate is surprisingly helpful on rounds and life and my interesting patient, but the more pressing problem is this newfound loneliness.

It's just like when I was in Nepal, except only on my 36 hours off and not an every day kind of lonely.  I have plenty of things I could/should do. . . dishes piled up, laundry piled up, studying, other books to read, a future to plan.  But I am too tired for that, I just want to hang out with my friends, and get a little energy back.  But at the moment they're all tied up-- off in coupleland on a double date, out of town, don't live here (MEWPPP), on a rotation that is so busy I dare not ask for their free time because I know they want to be recovering from their 3 hours of sleep for a week straight, or still at the hospital. 

I feel like nothing quite is the same as that emptiness of looking so forward to time off to spend with people and finding yourself alone.  In a big house, with nobody there.

I think these things are going to be remedied soon. . . 1) I will be so tired I will just sleep instead. 2) My friends won't be out of town. 3)Two new roommates will be moving in.  4) The couples will break up?  Just kidding, not a remedy.

If there are any readers out there I promise I really am enjoying life I'd say 85% of the time, don't worry about this.  I just need to get it out.